Wednesday, March 09, 2005

The moment of Magic.

People are different. People are unique. Everybody handles situations in their own way. I normally take decisions just like that. I let everything come to me or rather live life as it is. Accepting LIFE as it is gave me the risk element which I liked. Now cutting the chase..

I saw those EYES. Most beautiful pair of EYES and to top it all it was giving a blank innocent look. I just asked for authorization first thinking she wont let me do that. but she did let me look. And all I wanted to do was to say something… something very deep… given the ability she has to read my eyes and mind… I was just going for some interesting session to kill time with my TS.

But the moment I looked into it… I got lost. The last time I had looked into those honest and innocent eyes … I had felt the magic. It may sound stupid.. sound idiotic… as it did when others told me.. but its true… there are certain things that cant be told… cant be explained… this is one of them… and I was the lucky one to experience it twice…

I locked my sight into hers.. and then I was shifted to some wonderland… like the transponding of human mind being done in MATRIX… and what a perfect setting… so calm… so much of peace… such tranquility I’ve never seen… I totally was into it… and this time I wasn’t thinking… I wasn’t exploring the rabbit hole… I was just standing there in some stupor …

Then it happened … she twitched… and it was like the disturbance you get over the Microwave noise when u really have a good talk on the mobile… I got back into myself and started thinking… then tortured that sweet n cute eyes to stand still… yeah I was being selfish… but I had my reasons.. what I had started for fun ended up in a complicated process… I always take decisions anywhere … noisy or calm… I keep my mind in control.. but this time around… I dint want to… I just wanted to do that decision making in that magical surrounding… just wanted to experience that magical feeling as long as I can…

She was so sweet.. dint move… dint ask… just kept staring… and finally when I felt I’ve had enough.. yeah selfish again… but what to do… I’m not sweet.. I’m not that good…
I am really really bad..

What started as fun… just to kill time… ended up as one of those wonderful moments in my life which I would save up for a lifetime. I def will.. I know you are reading this… I had done all these when I said… “yeah, I’m done with it”

1. Taken a major decision in my life.
2. Enjoyed that magical moment.. I don know how to thank you for that.
3. Got completely lost to nowhere…
4. Felt the need and understood the Music of SILENCE…in my life.
5. Screwed up what I wanted to do…
6. Lost all my will for doing something from that night..
7. and so many other things which might sound trivial.. but important for me…
I had thought she would have got all that by now. But don’t know why. She kept asking me. I was not sure how she would react if I had told her the truth. I really love this life now.. and I don want to screw up anything.. I want nothing to change…


I just have one wish in my life. And GOD.. incase u exist and incase if u r reading my blog.. give me that one wish alone.i don need to ask for anything else in my life again. Coz once that happens everything else will happen for good. Yeah I’m selfish again.. but I’ve never asked for anything else. Even this I don’t want to.. but just a word for the amount of faith I have in myself and her. AMEN!!!

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